Yesterday I was sitting in church when a few words of poetry floated into my brain…in Turkish. It took me a moment to realize that I had just began my first poem in Turkish! I immediately opened the notes app on my phone and began tapping down the words (insert sheepish comment about not paying attention in church here). I’m not saying it’s perfect or beautiful or even good at all really in Turkish (thought I definitely owe credit to my friend Didem who helped me with editing), but I still feel something indescribable right now. I feel like Turkey and my life here has wound its way deeply into my heart. Something feels different. Good. Mystical. Like home. Here’s my poem, along with a photo I took last year of my brother and his wife.
Here’s a translation in English, although it doesn’t really sound the same to me…I didn’t think of these words in English first, so it’s kinda funny to hear them like this.
I’m alone, I said.
You said, I’m here.
I’m so afraid, I said.
You said, I will never abandon you.
I have no strength, I said.
You said, There is strength in weakness.
I have no one, I said.
You said, I am yours.
My spirit is weary, I said.
You said, Come, I will give you peace.
Ok, ok, I said. But do you love me?
You said, My darling, don’t you know?
You are a part of me.
I love with with all that I have.